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Great Expectations

July 21, 2011

I always feel strange on the other side of the camera. Really there is a reason I take the pictures-I feel most comfortable there. As a woman I can pick out at least 10 personal flaws in any photo of myself that no one would ever notice and sadly I really have a hard time liking any photo with me in it. But at the same time I want my children to be able to look back and see that I was there rather than just assuming I must have been or wondering if I really was. I want them to go through photos that evoke memories of times in our lives and maybe even have a laugh at my expense. So I decided to contact a photographer I met online years a few years ago to do just that-capture a special time in our lives as a family.

Ashlie Hilton is a Tucson, AZ based photographer and despite being a couple hour drive while I was 8 months pregnant I knew she was the one I wanted to photograph our family. She was amazing to work with and made it as stress free as family photos can be LOL! I of course stressed over outfits and making sure they all coordinated without being matchy-matchy but Ashlie helped me through it. She put us at ease immediately and managed to get genuine smiles from my boys which is a feat in itself! I nearly cried when I saw our photos-they were so us and captured exactly what I love about our family and I even liked the way I looked :)

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

I may be a bit biased but don’t my boys have AMAZING eyes?

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

I love the interaction she captured between them, total goofball brotherly love!

Ashlie Hilton, maternity, family photographer

Thank you again Ashlie! If you are ever in the Tucson area and are looking for a photographer seriously give her a call http://ashliephotography.com

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Today was what I hope the last of our hospital visits for awhile. Despite the fact that I think Phoenix Children’s Hospital has got to be the most child friendly facility ever built, the staff is incredible, and I have zero complaints, I hope I never have to go back.

My youngest son is a major sweetheart cutie pie, full of smiles and laughter and always looking to learn new things. He definitely has his 2 year old moments of melt downs and temper tantrums, but for the most part he is usually very easy going other than being pretty shy. You would never know that he suffers from constant diarrhea and painful stomach cramps or that he has a fairly restricted diet that currently excludes any dairy, egg, or soy products (that eliminates a TON of foods). He’s suffered from it his whole life and hasn’t ever known any other way, but it’s still so sad and hard to deal with. We started out removing things from my diet while I breastfed until we figured out what bothered his tummy and for a year I gave up all of them (yes I gave up chocolate and baked goods). Next step was doing allergy scratch tests, first at a year old and again when he turned two this summer, discovering only that he has some grass and seasonal allergies. Despite keeping known food intolerances out of his diet the best we can, it hasn’t gone away. So we began our adventure to try to figure out his diagnosis in August. I collected 4 containers of poo and took them back to the doctor to find out only that he has no parasites, no blood, no known infection, and digests fat. Then we moved on to the Gastroenterolgist but not before dealing with my husband’s head trauma incident. After seeing my son, who by the way is quite a big boy :) , he said we can assume that the worst case scenarios can be excluded because he is obviously thriving despite his issues. But we would have to put him through quite a few tests before we hopefully came back with a diagnosis.
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Last week began the round of testing with a endoscopy and sigmoidoscopy (similar to a colonoscopy). We had to prepare by giving him two enemas, that in itself was a completely awful experience that I wish on no one.  He and I took our first trip downtown to the hospital and arrived at 6:40 am to check-in and fill out paperwork (that’s super early for a night owl like me ;) ). After picking out a stuffed animal to accompany him, a koala bear that he says is a dog so that’s what it is, we settled in to a room to watch cartoons and play with toys while I tried to wrestle him into special hospital pajamas (he wanted nothing to do with them since he was happy with his own clothes). After meeting with the anesthesiologist and our GI doctor, we headed to the procedure room where I watched him fight going under and fought back my own tears. Thankfully my stepdad was waiting in the waiting area for me and we chatted while sipping hot chocolate. When he came to I headed back to see him, I could hear him crying as soon they opened the double doors to the recovery area. He screamed until the IV, the ID bands, and every piece of tape was taken off and then promptly fell asleep in the car for a much needed nap.
Phoenix Child Photographer
Phoenix Child Photographer
Phoenix child portrait

purse camera snapshots of the boy, his “dog”, and me

After that experience, he got a little break for some Halloween fun (I’ll post pictures soon!). Yesterday he had his blood drawn for a slew of tests that looked to be about 10 vials worth, luckily the lab tech was fabulous and drew it all into a large syringe and then distributed. I got sent home with poo collection duty one more time as expected. And now back to today. Today was the easiest of all but little man still didn’t want to do it. Today we arrived at the hospital at 8:15 after fighting rush hour for over an hour to sit in one more waiting room with more possibly sick people. We played while we waited and I explained to him that this time was just a picture of his tummy. So my funny boy lifts up his shirt and has me take a picture of it and asked to go home :) . We did leave very shortly after that, but not before getting the xray that required some persuading to stay still in exchange for a grape smelling sticker.
Phoenix child portrait

purse camera snapshot for his belly picture

We are testing for Crohn’s (my dad and sister both suffer from this), Celiac’s, enzyme deficiencies and a host of other things. I’m really hoping that all the results will be in next week and we’ll be able to get a diagnosis after all of this. But even with all of the difficulties of this last year, I’m just so thankful to have my beautiful boys and that they are as healthy as they are. I was reminded today that God has his reasons for his timing even if they are difficult for us to understand, if not for my miscarriages this year I would not have been able to be there in the radiology department with him today or have had the ease of taking care of my family in all our latest events. And I’m putting my faith in the fact that it will all work out in the end.

I want to apologize to anyone that I haven’t returned an email to. Some of you already know but my husband ended up in the hospital last week with an 8mm subdural hematoma (pretty much a bruise on your brain). He has fantastic teeth and went in Thursday morning for his first cavities, he was really nervous and forgot to eat breakfast. He made it through the appointment but at checkout he started to feel lightheaded and fell straight backwards, like I imagine a tree falls, hitting his head on the floor and was unconscious for several minutes. I got the call as the paramedics arrived and decided to take him to the hospital, it was a HUGE shock! After my mom arrived to watch my kids, I rushed to to the ER to find him strapped to a backboard with a neckbrace. Luckily there were no neck or spinal injuries but after the initial CT scan they thought they saw something wrong. A second CT was performed and a neurosurgeon was consulted (EEK!) and determined there was no aneurysm but there was a bleed in the front of his head caused when he hit the back of his head as hard as he did.

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(after he got off the backboard, PS this was with the little point and shoot I carry in my purse)

We were then informed that he was going to be transferred to a different hospital as a precaution in case it got worse and required surgery (the second hospital has a neurosurgery unit and was only 8 miles away by ambulance). I was scared, especially after he started throwing up. I ran home to grab dinner for my momma and my boys and found him in the ICU when I arrived. I’ve never had to advocate on someone’s behalf to busy nurses, or spend hours next to a mostly sleeping person’s bedside-it was an awful way to spend two days. It took forever to get clearance from a neurosurgeon, a cardiologist (another precaution), and an internal medicine specialist to go home that we were afraid he’d be there a second night.

We finally got home and got him settled in and I waited up for my mother-in-law to bring the boys home from a day spent with out of town guests. Saturday was spent with those out of town guests celebrating his grandfather’s 80th birthday (I’ll hopefully get some pictures from that up soon), it was a wonderful get together but we ended up spending Sunday recovering from the previous few days by laying around and sleeping. Which leads me to Monday that I tried to spend catching up on everything that fell to the wayside last week and not succeeding at any of it. I drove my husband, I am now his chauffeur, to his doctor’s appointment to find out he still is not released for driving and will need yet another CT scan. And today will not be any easier as we go to to our youngest’s first GI appointment to see if we can get to the bottom of his tummy issues.

All that to say – Do NOT skip breakfast and I will get back to all of you as soon as possible! Pleases be patient and if you don’t hear from me in a couple days, please try me again.

And thank you everyone for all your prayers and kind words! He’ll be ok in the long run, at this point he’s dealing with bad headaches and some short term memory loss that could last awhile and amnosmia – loss of sense of smell – that may or may not get better.

Family is one of the most important parts of my life so why not start there, right?

Recently some of my extended family got together to visit with my cousin while he was on R&R from the front lines. I am so proud of him for what he does and who he is! It was so great to see him, meet the sweetheart in his life, see his cutie of a son and of course enjoy the hamburgers and hotdogs :) Doesn’t he look mischievious in this picture? (You guess which one I’m talking about)
Phoenix Family Photographer

He just cracked me up the way he looked at me from the side like that!

Whenever I get the chance, I try to catch a picture for just me, something that just makes me happy. I had a vision in my head of what I wanted but it was a challenge to translate it to real life. You see, my grandpa is really hard to photograph, at least the way I wanted to. He seems to avoid the camera, especially if he is the only person in the picture.  So I obliged and took a picture of grandpa and my mom to test my lighting and then I stood there and waited for the moment. The moment he looked away and forgot I had the camera. It was perfect, just the light from the ceiling fan in the darkened kitchen. In my mind it was black and white and powerful. It reminded me of the hard life he’s lived, working long hours to support his family first as a farmer and then a painter up until recently when his health forced him to quit. It reminded me of the loneliness he feels after losing his wife of over 50 years to ALS 4 years ago, the one that he spent every night sleeping next to and worked side by side with every day. And it reminded me of how much I love him even though I’ve had a hard time getting close to him.

Phoenix Family Photographer

Keep your head down Conrad and get home safe! Thank you for what you do!

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